I had been doing so good. I didn't even know what CD I was. I have been working really hard at coming to terms with the fact that this just isn't going to happen anytime soon. I have been really praying for God to help me realize that this is all going to happen in HIS time, not mine.
Before I start, let me remind you the I have PCOS, I don't ovulate on my own, and I am not taking any meds this cycle.
Saturday, when I went to the bathroom I had a little EWCM. No biggie, sometimes I get it at random times. However, I never have more than something so small it has to be searched for. Sunday I had a pretty large amount compared to what I am used to. Then I started wondering. Yesterday when I went pee I had the biggest amount of EWCM I have EVER seen. We are talking like the size of a bouncy ball and with a stretch of like 2 inches! Of course, I immediately got on Fertility Friend and found out I was on CD12. When I got home I took the very last OPK I had with pee that was only 2 hours concentrated. I got the faintest of lines.
So, my questions are these:
**I seem to remember reading somewhere that PCOS can cause you to get false positives/lines on OPKs but I can't remember where. Has anyone else ever heard of this?
**Should I go out and buy more OPKs? I go back and forth between this one. I would love to actually know for sure what's going on but I hate to spend the money on them (we are trying to save everything we can). I kind of feel like it doesn't really matter at this point... ?
I'm trying really hard to not get my hopes up. I really want to be able to hand as much of this over to God as I can. It's just getting to be too much to handle on my own! With that said, I'm pretty excited about the possibility of Oing on my own!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009