What faith can do

In the car, on my way home from work today, I was contemplating why it is that I, of all people, got stuck with IF. I was passing by a bus stop and watching a mom struggle to cross the street with her toddler and infant in a shopping cart. All I could think was "Why the hell does she get to have babies and not me? I'm sure I would be a better mother than her!" That's when I heard myself. Seriously?!? Was I really judging someone I knew nothing about? Is that what IF has done to me? So, I turned on the local christian radio station in hopes of hearing something a little more encouraging than the pop music I was listening to. Then, I said a prayer. Just a short prayer asking God to help me change my attitude. That was when this song came on the radio..

"What Faith Can Do" by Kutless

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

It was just what I needed to hear.

Oh, hot flashes, how I loathe you...

Jade reads your blogs too!

So, where have I been? hmmm... Actually, I've been right here. I have still been reading your blogs, just not really commenting and really not posting. For some reason, words have seemed to escape me. I think about posting something all the time, but when it comes down to it, nothing. That's kind of how I have been feeling all around lately. Just kind of "eh". A little empty. It's no surprise, really. I am doing my best to maintain my sanity while playing an endless waiting game. So, sometimes I'll be here and sometimes I won't. Easy peasy.

Love you girls!

An Award

Thank you Robin for the award!


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1. You Can Only Use One Word

2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers

3. Alert them that you have given them this award

4. Have Fun!


The Fun Part
1. Where is your cell phone? arm-rest

2. Your hair? Red

3. Your mother? Amazing

4. Your father? Unnecessary

5. Your favorite food? cheese

6. Your dream last night? dunno

7. Your favorite drink? coke

8. Your dream/goal? Pregnancy

9. What room are you in? Livingroom

10. Your hobby? reading

11. Your fear? barren

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? SAHM

13. Where were you last night? Gym

14. Something that you aren’t? Pregnant

15. Muffins? blueberry

16. Wish list item? Pregnancy

17. Where did you grow up? Here

18. Last thing you did? Worked

19. What are you wearing? T-shirt

20. Your TV? old

21. Your pets? adorable

22. Friends? diverse

23. Your life? blessed

24. Your mood? eh

25. Missing someone? hubs

26. Vehicle? granny-mobile

27. Something you’re not wearing? bra :)

28. Your favorite store? target

29. Your favorite color? pink

30. When was the last time you laughed? afternoon

31. Last time you cried? morning

32. Your best friend? hubs

33. One place that I go to over and over? toilet :)

34. One person who emails me regularly? facebook

35. Favorite place to eat? Bei-Fang


As soon as I post this I will start a post on where I've been.

It's a bird! It's a plane! No wait! It's Super Sperm!

While Hubs and I were shopping last weekend, we stopped by the Halloween store that just opened up. To my surprise this is what I found:

Super Sperm

"Description:No one will believe that you entered the party as Super Sperm this year. This bulging white bodysuit is padded with muscles in the arms and legs. A long snake-esque tail, dome shaped headpiece and white gloves are also included. Plus, the Super Sperm logo is printed square in the chest. You'll strike fear or hilarity into those around you with this unique superhero costume. Hit the town with your archenemy, Captain Condom, for a hilarious night."

For a mere $52.99 you can become Super Sperm. If only it was that easy...

Find it here.

Would the real AF please stand up?

About a week ago I found out that I have refills of my Femara left. Even though I know I am doing it without dr.'s approval I decided to go ahead do a medicated cycle. I am tired of doing nothing. I want to at least have a smidgen of a chance.

It seems as though the bitch (AF) seems to have other plans for me. According to FF I am due to start on Wednesday (CD 31) or possibly Thursday (CD32). On Wednesday (CD 24) I began to have PMS symptoms. Very slight spotting began on Friday (CD 26) and when I say slight I mean slight. Nothing on my panties, only when I wipe, pink CM slight. That went on for 3 days never getting darker. As of today all of my PMS symptoms and spotting are gone. I don't even feel like I can count the spotting as a super light AF because of how little there was.

I'm hoping, HOPING that the real AF will show up so I can do a medicated cycle. If it doesn't I won't be able to take the Femara. Boo.


*And before you ladies start telling me that it could be "special" implantation spotting I am pretty sure that I didn't ovulate this month.